Goodbye January, Goodbye Heartbreak, Goodbye Extra Weight

Shopping for gowns makes me feel like a princess

Hello :) Today was such a fun day and I was in need of a day like this. I woke up early, frantic of course, and went to a place called the Bar Method. I was told it was workout dance but it ended up being workout, haha with crunches, sit ups, and all sorts of tortuous stretching. It was one hour of pain but my stomach already feels a little bit flatter even if my legs feel like jelly. I had a delightful lunch with close friends and we tried on dresses for our senior ball in May haha, I'm excited! We also watched Frozen. Frozen was a GREAT and I have no complaints about the feminism or what not. I loveeee how one huge premise of the movie was that you can't marry someone you just met. Maybe watching a fairytale like romance isn't the best way to get over a breakup but Frozen actually had something rather insightful to say. Perhaps what SEEMS like the best option isn't the picturesque thing you make it out to be. After a really long chat with my friend L, I sort of came to the conclusion that S and I were not really meant for each other. Perhaps no one is perfectly meant for you, but there were a lot of strains in our relationship just because we were so different and I ended up relying way too much on him. Being away from him also made me see the community of supportive, wonderful, and lovely friends I've built up over the years.

Anyways, click on below for a state of the union (just in time for Obama's tomorrow!) and another chapter of the City Girl story I've been working on!

The World Moves On. Will You?

Hi everyone! I've been having a rough couple of days but I realized that life moves on, with or without you. You can choose to mope on the floor and throw a self-pity party, or you can stand up and try to remember how to smile. I've chronicled a lot of events within my years blogging (it's almost two yearsss!) from slight crushes to some of the little moments regarding S. I feel like you deserve this moment of my life as well. Maybe you are reading my blog for the very first time, well, S is was my boyfriend. He was my first real boyfriend because everyone knows that middle school doesn't count. We dated for almost 8 months and the end of January marks one year of friendship. S and I are different in every single way, from the way our brains work, to the colors we like, clothing style, temperature of feet, everything, yet somehow we were able to connect and support each other in everything. I spent almost half my day with him, from just doing homework at his house to messaging about the late night struggles. Maybe because we are so different, we fought almost half the time. It could start with a small argument about a Saturday and lead to a full scale fight that put us on the verge of breaking up. We were both very new at the dedication and effort required to have a functioning relationship.

He is one year younger than me and college kind of consumed me -- from applications, to stress, to interviews, my life-- and he didn't want to do long distance, which makes sense. There's a teeny little bit of chance that I would go to UC Berkeley but it's definitely not in my top 5. Long distance is painful and hard and doesn't work most of the time. He wanted to continue our relationship until June, the end of the school year. I hate deadlines, a bit ironic seeing as I love journalism. I don't think I could've been happy knowing that there was a definite, foreseeable end on June 13th. Of course we both knew that one day I would move away but it wasn't so close as it is now.

City Meets Girl

Hi guys :) my life is really busy at this particular moment in time... because of finalssss! So there isn't much news I want to share about my own personal going ons. I don't think there will be that many posts this week but I couldn't not post this for you guys :) I'm not sure how many are following the story but here is the second chapter!

Hmm, I haven't done a state of the union in a while so I think I'm just going to summarize a couple + points in my life.
+Vampire Weekend! <3 I absolutely love Vampire Weekend! They're upbeat sort of sarcastic music is growing on me and some really good study music!
+Google plus hangouts! Perfect for a late night econ study sesh
+Snapchat filterssss! so coool!
+exercise! (I've gained so much weight.....)
+Dress shopping! (all them junior girls are excited about dress shopping and I have to wait at least another MONTH, no fairrrrr)
+notecard making > studying (hehehehhe stat)

Enjoy the story!

An Ode to Grapefruit

Hello everyone :) I hope you're having a great Thursday! I'm sorry I didn't have a musing for you this week. I didn't really have time to contemplate and write something down but hopefully one will be up next week. I'm writing a new short story about a girl who has had a lot of different personalities and names. Basically the premise is about this story is her facing her past without running away from everything that she's scared of. It's under the lable story as well as City Girl. On Tuesday, I had a mock trial scrimmage and it was SO COOL!!! We were all dressed up and as court journalist, I got to sit in this special place with the court artist :D I didn't know I had to introduce myself so that was quite embarrassing...Anyways, I wrote this silly little poem about grapefruit!! 

Girl Meets City

Hello everyone! I have an incredibly busy week ahead of me. It just seems to be getting busier! I had a public speaking tournament yesterday and I was super excited to break! Although I didn't do so well in final round, I had such a fun time with everyone on the team :) I did not appreciate getting home at 8pm to a mountain of homework. I have a mock trial scrimmage from 3:30 to 9pm and I'm actually competing against one of my church member's school. I have another three day (well 2 days if we don't break BUT CROSSING MY FINGERRRRRS) tournament and finals next week. Busy, busy, busy.

I think I'm finally 100% over the guy I liked freshman year. He was the first guy I really fell for and I think I've explained this before but everything seemed so right. Yeah, I know I'm dating someone too but there's always that spot your first crush occupies. I recently saw a video on Facebook of him asking a girl to a dance like thing? (he moved schools) and I actually feel happy for him. There are no bitter feelings or anything. I wonder if he even remembers me.

But enough about me and my life. This is part two of the story I've been working about the girl with many, many identities. Enjoy :) and I'm sorry in advance for probably the lack of posts until. . . the end of January..

Yes, I'm a Feminist

Hi guys! I just wanted to update this little corner of my blog: musings. Musings are the heart of any blog and I was given a little food for thought. I've really wanted to cover this for a while but there was never a right moment, a right jolt of inspiration. Now it nears 11 pm and I'm sitting in pink pj pants (gasp! not yoga pants!! those are in the wash :/ it's not really Tuesday either but . . . musings don't wait), listening to some Maroon 5 and I just needed to write this right now. I was talking to my boyfriend (it feels weird. really weird.) casually about the bank situation... (yeah... this is our relationship xD) There are two things that get me riled up and they are banks and feminism.

I became absolutely enamored with the bank situation this year (very recently..) and then there's feminism. I think I became like this in the middle of sophomore year. I had a very pro feminism teacher for European History. Everyone makes fun of that all the time. "Oh she won't mind if you blah blah do something terrible blah blah if you put in a good word about women!" She may be a little crazy about women's history but you know, she's the only woman (out of 3 so it's not that bad...) teaching European History who actually covers the things women did in detail. In junior year, I watched a great documentary called Miss Representation and listened to one of the people who worked on the project at a journalism convention. Since those moments, I've just been noticing how media, people, I treat women. The little things are the worst. This rant could be divided into so many parts but I'll spare you that for now.

I do this annoying thing once in a while where I just send him blurbs of something remarkable a woman did. This time it was about women in film. Here is a great article I read that made me go hmmm and I feel like when one person goes hmm there is great potential behind that. It's dated from one year ago but I don't think much has changed. Check it out!! http://www.thegrindstone.com/2012/09/18/office-politics/women-creating-more-tv-shows-157/
But enjoy my take of feminism and why I choose to be a feminist.

Kicking the New Year with New Stories

Hi everyone :) It's been an awfully long time since I actually wrote some decent fiction. It's been a while since I wrote anything except the short tidbits of my life. Over the break, I was inspired to write which happens at the most bizarre times. I was about to practice my speech when I accidentally clicked the document next to the speech since the documents folder is categorized alphabetically. It's a story about a girl who has lived through so many different identities but must face the reality of who she is.

I have another rant on the way so stay tuned for that :) (it's not about health care or banking but rather about the way people view feminism.) I'm returning to school and we all know what that means for the state of this blog. I do Mock Trial (I'm the court journalist yoooo! lawl) and that and speech/debate combined makes for quite a busy schedule so I'm sorry if there aren't as many posts to greet the new year. Less is more sometimes. I'd much rather put some thought into posts than quickly sending them off because I want you guys to read something or keep my blog sort of relevant.

I also wanted to draw attention to the new tab at the top of the screen! Last year, I wrote a post about a happy moments jar. This year, I wanted to spice it up and add a little tab with random photos I plan to add. I'm not sure about the structure of it because well, I'm not so good at computer design. I wish there was a way to incorporate a tumblr esque element to this blog but there just isn't a way (that I know of..). So I'll be thinking about it and I hope you'll check it out!

Anyways here's the first chapter of my SHORT story. If you guys happen to still be waiting for coffee shop (which I doubt..it's been about a year...), I honestly don't see any ending to that. I'm just not inspired to write and I'm not captivated by these characters anymore. That's a part of my writing past that I think I'm letting go of. But we never know. I hope you enjoy this one :) next update will be next week! I promise!! It'll be under the tag City Girl so tune in :)

2013 Reflections

Hello :) It seems that the end of the year has crept up on me once again. I'm one year older and perhaps more knowledgeable about the world, I'm thinking not. I became a lot closer to my friends this year and I truly think that I have some of the best friends in the world. These people have seen me at my worst, and best, and still love me and cherish my company. We are all weird, loud, crazy, wonderful together. I've been thinking about that a lot lately and I've had such amazing memories of 2013. I'm sad to see the year go and super nervous for the big transition from high school to college. 2013 was a big year for me! Happy new yearrrrrr!

2013 was an awesome year for me and I just wanted to highlight a couple things:

♥I became Feature Editor for my school newspaper and it was one of my biggest accomplishments! Perhaps you guys are rolling your eyes at me, wondering why this is something worth sharing. I really love journalism and writing and being able to be part of the editorial board is always so exciting! Even if the paper isn't that great, a lot of hard works goes into it and I love it. 

♥First article on the front page of the newspaper!
♥First (real) boyfriend. I didn't think that I'd get a boyfriend in high school. As common as the movies make it seem, not that many people have boyfriends/girlfriends in high school. We have a lot of fights yes, but I do enjoy his company a lot. He is a really special person to me. We're so silly together and it amazes me how different we are. He knows almost everything about me, all my good points and the terrible things I try to hide so hard, and yet he loves me. That's really something.
♥I finished all my testing! That chapter of my life has come to a close. Yes, it was a really disappointing process but I got through it and I'm done with it! Yipeeee no more SAT!
♥New phoneeee! 

♥Discovered Lizzie Bennett Diaries on youtube and Emma! :) Please check it out :D 

♥First trip to New York and I absolutely fell in love with it.
♥I joined mock trial and am the court journalist :D which is super exciting.
♥I applied to college! That one doesn't need any more emphasis. A great way to start the new year :)