Monday, April 21, 2014

The Paradox of Bowling Shoes

I know this blog has been going on a downwards slump which reflects the state of my life. So I'm going to pick myself up and be back running for the month of May! I want to work on new blog designs, new stories, new rants about feminism, actual updates on my subpages, etc. So bear with me as I take a short break to get it back up to speed.

Things I want to accomplish:
-new blog layout . . . 
-one photo a month for a collective little moment (like a collage of 30 or so photos)
-posts for the happenings of my exercise and reading.. 
-a new updated schedule of the things I want to post: I have a tentative plan in mind. I want to continue writing fiction, start writing reviews/my own analysis of my favorite tv shows, feminism rants (most of the musings have been feminism related..), and probably some more stuff that I think of.. 
-fashion T.T (I don't have someone to take artsy photos in the background of beautiful nature)

In the next few months, I'm transitioning into a college student. I definitely want to continue blogging and document the growth of life. I'm not sure how being a college student will affect this blog yet. I'm guessing layout will be a large factor in the change. It's a bright, vibrant, chaotic time in my life. 

I'll leave you with a zany little thought though. I don't go bowling much but when I do, I revel in wearing bowling shoes. I have pretty small feet even in normal circumstances, but somehow my feet look even smaller and so cute in bowling shoes. Bowling shoes started my love of oxfords. Yet, for people with larger feet, bowling shoes can make your feet look extremely large like clown feet. I thought that was an interesting paradox. 

Haha, see you in May! 

Friday, April 18, 2014

"Wife Material"

Hello everyone! I know I promised you a musing Tuesday but life got really hectic and I was running out of juice. April has been a month of emotional lows. But now, I'm sitting in my yoga pants ready for that musing. The time has been flying past but day to day life is incredibly difficult. There's a lot of backlash about my personal decision to choose Smith so it upsets me that I can't quite commit yet. Perhaps you guys are also wondering why in the world I would choose a small liberal arts, all women school for a "prestigious" school like Berkeley (maybe not, but basically my whole family is like "what's wrong with you?"). I loved it at Smith, absolutely fell in love. I loved that I could talk to anyone on campus about the problems of feminism, the world, education, etc and people cared and had such intelligent remarks. That's the kind of environment where I can grow and develop into a woman leader for the new global world.  My mom is like "their stats are lower" but I saw a campus full of young women who are so bright and want to be there. Professors are so passionate about what they believe in and teach and the small class sizes allow you to interact much more. Whether it's just a question about the course or questions about life, they're there to answer them and help you out. The house system is magical! You have advice from people of all lengths and grades to be supportive when you need them. I would be really sad to give this all up just so that I can have four years of people saying "oh my gosh, wow." Life has a lot more to offer than the outside views of people.

I was talking to a friend and his sister, who happens to be my closer friend, and he's also deciding between Berkeley and a great liberal arts school. He is a quirky guy who has a lot of humor and never thinks before he speaks. He was asking me about Smith and if I've completely decided yet. At the end, he added how Smith and Wellesley (another girl's school) were schools where you find a wife. A lot of guys in the outside world think that girls from these schools are down for anything and have no standards because there aren't any guys. Oh my god. I think his sister was kind of surprised at how angry I got/what a ridiculous comment her brother made because she's also thinking about a women's college.

Well first of all, a women's college was made to give girls the equal opportunity to go into the world and pursue whatever they want. When I was at Smith, I felt an overwhelming feeling of everyone being proud of who they are. It's a weird feeling to be surrounded by a huge group of girls who aren't catty, who don't hate each other, and who all want to see each other succeed. That sounds like an amazing four years to me... Everyone is there for an education, not to become wife material. There's such a double standard regarding that. When a guy says they're going to college, no one says "oh cool, you can learn how to become such a good husband." No, they ask "oh wow, what do you want to pursue?" Now, there is a lot more equality now. I've never heard this comment before until today. I'm definitely not going to school to find a husband. No way.

Second of all, guys should all be afraid of Wellesley girls. They send more girls to Harvard Business school than ANY OTHER SCHOOL. These girls are ready for business, literally. They have a sharp edge and aren't there to learn how to cook dinner for some ceo husband. No, they're there to become the CEO. While Smith doesn't have that business-y edge, it's a place to learn how to become a leader and confident in oneself.

On a lighter tone, I started watching Steven Universe (Rebecca Sugar from Adventure Time parted and started her own show!) and it's awesome. I highly recommend. That's about it for my rant. Have a lovely weekend. xx

Monday, April 14, 2014

Boston: How to Travel When Everything Goes Wrong

a recollection from my trip 
Hello lovelies! I hope you are all having a fantastic week! I should be at school right now but I decided to take the day chilling at home and catching up on a lot of work that I missed. On Wednesday I went to San Francisco Airport for my late flight to Hartford, Connecticut. As the title implies, absolutely everything went wrong on this trip. It was my first trip alone and my goodness, just when you think it can't get any worse, it does. So follow me on my journey to learn more about what to do when a) your flight is extremely delayed b) emergency pitstop in Texas c) luggage gone missing and more!

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Hello Spring!

As the title already mentions, hello spring! This past week has marked spring break and I had so much fun just enjoying life. I really took this break as an opportunity to breathe outside home. I don't have pictures just because I feel that pictures sometimes take away from the moment. I hang out with people and eat food to cherish it, not to show it (I am also not a fan of photos..). Here's a basic list of how I spent my spring break happily content right at home.

  • Watching Divergent with friends! 
  • Hemming my ball dress and getting Vietnamese food on a rainy Monday afternoon. 
  • Rolling around in bed and reading and reading and reading. 
  • Catching up with an old friend over frozen yogurt and college touring. 
  • Watching Korean dramas!!!! 
  • Going to San Francisco with friends! We ate lots of food and dress shopped. It's so fun trying on dresses you never get to wear. I also found a sweater from Top Shop that was 50% off, what a steal! 
  • Eating flatbread pizza with TG (remember him?) and catching up about college and the non-happenings of high school. I also got to experience ice cream made with liquid nitrogen. I have to say...real ice cream tastes better.... 
  • Going to dinner with the fam at a nice Japanese restaurant. 
  • Ogling Kate Spade online. Why is everything so pretty (and super expensive...)? 
  • Going out to SF for college sessions! 
I'm just so excited for college. I'm so excited for that freedom of being an individual. I really want to learn how to cook. It seems so fun. I can bake like a pro (in my dreams..) but I've never been able to make a delicious meal (but if you need a pie, hit me up! jk, it'll probably not be that good..). Spring has sort of revitalized me. I'm in the midst of one of the most difficult and important decisions of my life. It's a little bit more drastic than "should I get my hair cut?" Even a simple question like that takes so much deliberation on my part. I'm learning to slowly let go of the past. 

I don't want every post to be about S but this blog is also a platform for organizing my thoughts. I talked to him over break just because I thought of an old memory. It turns out he never really meant to keep a long distance relationship with me. That really took me by surprise and for a few days, I felt incredibly sad. I do think that I gave a little bit too much of myself. It was almost to the point where I would base my life's ambition on somewhere that would also fit with him. I'm only 17 years old. It's way too early to give up the dream of living in the city, commanding the sidewalk with cute heels and a new bag once in a while, riding the subway all the time to work, etc. In the long run, a break was probably the best outcome. I've never been the type of person to compromise on goals and there isn't any reason why I should start now. His life revolved around getting into a good college and then a good job and living in a nice house with a picket fence and a lawn. A homely little woman who does her thing but is more than willing to compromise. I'm definitely not that girl. 

I hope starting this week, I can post more, exercise more, and maybe take a few photos once in a while. xx thanks for reading.