Friday, January 23, 2015

2:26 PM

My favorite project of critical crafting
I've been in a weird slump and I'm sorry for the lack of posts. I feel really apathetic and kind of like an abnormal lump on the sidewalk. I don't know where I want my life to go or what I want to be pursuing. It's normal, they all say, but to me it's not. I've always had some kind of direction and aspiration, a ten year plan. I just want to quit school and go pursue art and block printing even though I don't really have any technical skills. I feel like I'm great at a lot of things on a surface level. I can write, I can draw bearded apples, etc, but I can't do one thing with wholehearted devotion and talent. I'm kind of scared that I'm going to spend my whole life just drifting around always changing my life goal and never really amounting to anything. It's really scary that next year I won't have the excuse of being a first year and somehow life needs to make sense again.

Monday, January 5, 2015

I'm the True MVP: Q&A

It's not Friday but . . . any day is fair game for some questions. I went back to my high school today and it was a bit of an eye opening experience. Not because I've changed so much but rather because the people around me have changed and we are all in the limbo of growing up and finding out who we are so here are some fun questions to describe my experiences so far.

1. Are guys allowed on Smith campus?
Yes. Any other rumors I can debunk about Smith? (seriously though, if you guys have any questions about college, Smith, women's college, women, I love to answer questions..) On another note, when discussing classes with friends, I can definitely feel the hippie liberal arts college nature. I took a class called Reacting to the Past and next semester, I'm taking a class dedicated purely to plant physiology. This is real life. 

2. In what ways have you changed?
Hmm.. I'm still a really geeky, clumsy girl prone to be loud and like sparkly things. I've become a bit more confident in myself and can be kind of assertive at times. I've started taking life a little less seriously. No, I haven't adopted the "yolo" lifestyle where I do a lot of stupid, dangerous things. I've stopped caring about what other people think and have fully embraced the awkward persona I embody. So what if I want to spend my whole life contributing to research on bees? What if I want to plan breathtaking, environmentally sustainable cities? So what if I want to wear impractical things and feel absolutely beautiful? No one can stop me.

3. Makeup routine?
Makeup is a lot of fun haha. I've always loved art so makeup feels like an extension of personality and expression. Step one: foundation, simple contouring, blush. Step 2: eye primer, eye shadow (I start with a super light color, pink/light brown, dark purple/dark brown), eyeliner, mascara, glittery eyeliner pencil (mostly to cover up botched eyeliner). Step 3: lipstick, lipgloss. It can take anywhere from 15-30 minutes. My technique is very simple and probably entirely incorrect.
Makeup love of the moment: Lorac eyeshadow palette.

4. What are you up to?
Summer internships, finishing my submission for Intermediate Fiction Writing, and of course online shopping.

5. Style aspirations?
Colorful. For me, 2015 is all about color. Living boldly and outside the lines. I want more vibrant bright hues, crazy print, really out there fashion.

I'm really psyched about this year. Hope you are tooo. Share your goals with me xx 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Pops of Color

Hello :) I spent the first day of the new year eating Indian food (Indian food is so delicious, another lesson from 2014) and enjoying the seaside breeze. I have a feeling that 2015 will be a pretty great year, full of curious memories.